Fiction

If You Only Knew

Tanya’s story begins when she is in fifth grade. As a character, she was born in 2012 for a Nanowrimo project. the 30,000-word NNWM story (working title: My Name is Eva) only covered Tanya’s troubling childhood which–I’ll admit–was based on some painful events of my own childhood, hence the unorthodox writing style that is loosely termed as “creative writing”. I’ll also admit that writing it was more fun than I thought and very therapeutic.

If You Only Knew picks up in Tanya’s high-school years, some years after My Name is Eva. While it is not as autobiographical as My Name is Eva (Tanya’s substance-abuse problems are NOT the problems I faced in HS) some of the attitudes about life and other perplexities she faced–as in regards to her view of God, family, and her low sense of self-worth–were things I definitely had to work out.

The following is a Table of Contents, if you will. Click on the thumbnail to the left of the title to go to that page. (Last updated 10/2014)

1 – If You Only Knew – Introduction

 

 

2 – This Side of Eternity

 

 

3 – The Leftovers Kid

 

 

4 – Love’s a Joke

 

 

5 – Negotiating a Miracle

 

 

6 – Miracles

 

 

7 – On the Couch

 

 

8 – An Interlude of Misery

 

 

9 – Hounded by His Presence

 

 

10 – The Long Road Back

 

 

11 – Coming  in From the Rain

 

 

12 – Yes, It Matters

 

 

13 – Tony

 

 

14 – Prayers

 

 

15 – Pain

 

 

16.1 – Friends Again

 

 

16.2 – Zuri

 

 

17 – Antonieta

 

 

18 – If My People

 

 

19 – Getting Ready

 

 

20 – Return to Hilltop Church

 

 

21 – Mara

 

 

22 – Alone

 

 

23 – Alive